Prior to Kambo, I had spent months feeling lost and detached from myself; hope was little to none most days, which was very unlike me. I was struggling to get out of bed and couldn’t pinpoint what was going on inside me. Kambo came indirectly into my life about a year prior when I was welcomed into a group who had the opportunity to sit with the medicine. Time wasn’t aligned for me then and while I was intrigued, the pull eventually faded and Kambo left my conscious headspace.
Fast forward a year later, Kambo came back into my world, this time through a dream. I don’t recall much of the dream other than a frog crawling toward me, but when I woke up, I thought, “Kambo is calling.” I reached out to a friend who had experienced Kambo in the past, but she did not have connection to the medicine any longer. A few days went by and she told me someone had added her on Facebook- que the incredible Nanci. After an informative phone conversation with Nanci, I felt positive that this was exactly what I wanted to do, and Nanci was exactly the one I wanted to guide me.
The day before Kambo, Nanci had reached out to see how I was feeling and remind me of the pre-Kambo instructions. When I arrived to her house the next morning, I knew what to expect from the research I had done, but in the same, I had no idea. Nanci was an absolutely ray of fierce sunshine. She welcomed me with a big hug and that welcoming feeling remained constant through out my three-day experience.
On the first day, Nanci explained the entire procedure and included very accurate details on the sensations which would occur within my body as the medicine was rising. Since this was my first experience with Kambo, Nanci applied the medicine slowly to observe how my body would react. There wasn’t a single moment in my three days with Nanci that I didn’t feel safe, she was unbelievable! It takes a special someone to make you feel good about yourself as you’re purge in all forms.
After day one, I felt drained and used it as a great excuse to catch up on sleep. My dreams were more vivid. Interestingly enough, things and people from the past came up in my dreams which and who I hadn’t consciously thought about in a while.
On the second day, things intensified a little bit. I felt very blocked. I was purging but with resistance. It wasn’t until the third and most challenging, yet most liberating day, that I realized why I had struggled so much on that second day-I was trying to control the experience rather than surrendering to the medicine and trusting it to take its course. I won’t get into the details of the purge, but it should be known that it’s an intense and very vulnerable experience. That said, I could not think of anyone better than Nanci to hold space throughout this experience. Nanci’s passion for the medicine and the traditions involved was inspiring. All the stories of her training and calling to Kambo were such gifts to hear and learn.
My take away: I felt completely centered and aligned after sitting with Kambo. The best way to describe my post-Kambo self is “at home within myself”… finally! Kambo is now a part of me, in work, at home, in my social life, and in my yoga practice. Of course, there is external work to be done, but Kambo has brought clarity for the direction I’d like to follow. Its such a fortunate feeling to be home, again. We’re all there within ourselves but the chaos of life sometimes clouds our truth. I thank Kambo and Nanci for bringing me home.